Eclipse season feelings
Dear Witchy Writer,
I don’t know about you, but this eclipse season has me asking a lot of “Who am I?” and “What am I doing here?” questions. This past lunar eclipse was in Libra (my Rising Sign), and the upcoming solar eclipse is in Aries (my Moon Sign).
These two signs are all about identity. The rising sign is about who you are out in the world, and the moon sign is about who you are as your innermost self. And eclipses are all about seeing underneath to what is really going on.
So, yeah, this eclipse season has me deep in my feelings about who I am in the outer world and who I am in my inner world. I’m feeling into my work and my home. And what I’m feeling is that, at least at this moment, I am squarely in the center of the happenings of life.
At home, my dear friend and her two young kiddos recently moved in with my husband and me. And now I’m a full time Auntie, which I love, and also it’s a whole new world, which can be overwhelming. My evenings have suddenly transformed from falling asleep reading on the couch to watching If You Give a Mouse a Cookie and snuggling with a four year old as he does the NYT mini-crossword with me. Wait, who am I?!
My work in the world is calling me to focus solely on the deeply healing aspects of what I do. And that is the upcoming spring session of the Cacao + Writing Coven, which starts on April 18. Right now, I am preparing to hold the container for this energetic work that will help us create soul nourishing writing lives. And as I do this preparation, I am also closing other parts of my work and letting go of ideas that have been on my list since the beginning. Wait, what am I doing here?
And spring has truly arrived. The cherry tree is in full splendor. Purple, pink, and white hyacinths are sending their fragrances into the garden. The daffodils are cheerfully standing tall. The garlic grew at least a foot last week, and the carrots are in the ground. Plus, the dawn chorus of birdsong has started again.
So, things are happening!
And I’m feeling into all of this, all the swirls of energy surrounding me, and considering my role. Who am I? What am I doing here?
I see myself standing in the garden, barefoot, connecting to the energy down in the earth and up into the cosmos. I see myself filled with power at my center.
And a feeling arises within me. It is the strong, grounded feeling of standing tall at the center of my life. Even when it feels like chaos, with daily messes and big feelings and uncertainty…this centeredness is holding me firm.
I see clearly that I don’t have words to answer these big questions of identity, at least not yet, but there is a powerful feeling within that I am here, I am being myself, and I am doing my thing. And that is more than enough for now.
Emma
P.S. The spring session of Cacao + Writing Coven starts on April 18. This is a seasonal healing path, where we work with cacao rituals and oracle card practices to help you clear writing blocks, empower your creative flow, and create a soul nourishing writing life. If this sounds intriguing, schedule a free 30 minute consultation with me, where I’ll tell you more about the program and you can decide if it’s right for you.